One day he's going to grow up...

Being pregnant again has brought to me the realization of how, not too long ago, I went through all these stages of anticipation and wonder with Caiden.  As I read the updates on my week to week pregnancy (at 13 weeks now - woohoo second trimester! ), I see I get to relive those baby moments again...so blessed. Now instead of wonder it is more just a looking forward to.  It is to be cherished and enjoyed, because it does pass.

Caiden is no longer a baby, so each new phase I try to ceize and enjoy thoroughly.  My boy seems to be growing so fast,  he no longer wants to be held like a baby, wants to try to eat on his own,  and wants to sleep in the bed like a big boy. 

Although I will get to once again enjoy those precious baby moments soon again,  I do not want to forget the precious toddler moments I am experiencing right now... notice I am writing this at 5am as he is sleeping vs 5pm when there is chaos and running and sometimes screaming...

Here are my favorite things about having a toddler:

1. Watching him sleep.
Well passed the new parent "is he breathing?" phase and loving the peaceful surrender of him rejuvenating for the next day of running around. So tender.

2. How he calls me "momma".
Best. Word. Ever.

3. How he runs to you with open arms.
My boy is a hugger...it is awesome to have these tiny arms reach around you and squeeze, if you are lucky you will get a "kissee" too.

4. Seeing the world through fresh eyes.
Everything is new and exciting,  lights are "wooooowww" and sounds make you dance,  and everything needs to be discovered. There is no "bad" yet.

5. How he learns through imitation.
Though it's also a scary one,  you just have to be careful.  I love how he throws his hands up and says "touchdown" during a game...or "cheers" with his sippy cup when we have guests...or tries to broom and wipe up spills on his own...or how he grabs the book and thinks he is actually reading...how he thinks he is brushing his teeth right.

6. His banter.
Though his vocabulary is growing and we are able to now make out what he wants,  90% of the time it is pure, beautiful,  baby talk.  He is fully explaining something with passion and intent... we just agree in delight. The hand actions and signaling make it even better...oh man I actually love watching him talk.

7. Dancing.
Music = dancing = awesome moves = adorable.

8. Cuddles in bed.
Yes I give in and let him sleep in our bed, but he won't be small forever,  nor will be want to cuddle forever,  so I give in to really enjoying it while it lasts.  Warm and so tender.

There are definitely endless joys to having children and watching them grow, but as I am preparing to have a baby I realize each stage is so different.   The one commonality is that every stage passes,  and eventually goes away.  They will be grown up and no longer needing you...so I choose to give in and really enjoy every ounce of childhood...to the drop...until they do grow up. 

Turning Mommy - Part 2

I know I have been slacking a bit here,  but hey life gets busy.  I'm a working mommy, come home to spend time with my beautiful family,  have dinner,  cleanup,  play,  prep for the next day,  bedtime routine it up, then pass out...get up and do it all again.   It may sound routine,  but it isn't quite that simple,  but I enjoy it. 

This is life with an active and growing toddler who is full of wonder and energy, and learning the art of the dreaded....tantrum. It definitely is an energy-filled stage,  we have to be on our toes watching the little bugger. It amazes me how he just imitates and learns things.  For example,  if he sees a towel, no doubt he tries to wipe everything in sight;  if he sees a broom he will be sweeping until his arms tire; gets a hold of our phone and he has a full conversation (in his baby language) and tries to swipe up and down.  So interesting and cute,  and sometimes frustrating (I refer to the newly realized tantrums when he doesn't get his way,  whoa baby my boy has some pipes) this little person is.  As Caiden grows,  it's a constant learning for us, as well as him... and it's amazing to be able to focus on that.

But we also realize he is getting older and before too long we think he may need a sibling too.  A sibling to grow with,  teach, build a relationship with, and bond with... hopefully without too big an age gap (by our preference).  He does love kids and playing with others.

Sometimes I think,  wow how can you manage a toddler and a baby?  But it's been done and if you are tired now perhaps knock it all out while you are on a roll...maybe...yeah I think so...right?...YES!  The answer is yes for us! 

Friends, we are happy to announce that I am indeed once again turning mommy.  Caiden will be a big brother,  and our family is ready to welcome another angel, coming June 28. 

I know that we have this little wonder of what the next personality will be like,  because Caiden is a character and a half, but so far the pregnancies feel different.  So I am sure we will have our fair share of stories for the next few years to come. 

Stay tuned...turning mommy part 2...it's happening! 

;)

"Momma" - Gets Me Everytime

Caiden is definitely in his experimental, wondering, exploring,  testing boundaries, throwing and mimicking phase.  As cool as this is, there is a new word we are using all the time..."No!"  

He doesn't just walk...he runs.  It's fantastic and scary wrapped up into one emotion.  While we can't over-coddle him or smother,  I do try to hinder potential mis-haps, or yell to not touch plugs,  or play with doors...oh yeah...and to stay out of the bathroom (we know what he will play with in there).   So in trying to teach him what not to do, we try to master the "poker" face, no smile, no giving in to those adorable eyes,  and say "No".  Here is how that goes, it works, most of the time, and by most of the time,  I mean when hubby does it.  Now whether I do it, or Vick, our smart monkey turns his attention on us, like he is thinking,  "ok I see your stern voice and raise you a "momma?????"  Gosh....ughh, it is so fricking endearing!!!! It isn't even just a regular "momma", it lingers with a soothing sounding melody,  as if candy comes pouring out, making you melt and say "yesss my bubba...come to momma." 
Gets me everytime. 

I swear he knows it too.

Over time Caiden has learned which things he is not supposed to do, such as playing in the bathroom.  How do I know this? Well several times he manages to sneak away and I go look for him as he is suspiciously quiet.  I find him standing in the bathroom entrance,  just standing; as he sees me he just turns and smirks. The little devil, he is totally testing his boundaries. Or he runs up to the TV and just raises his hand to motion he may press something and turns and looks at us.  Smart...sneaky...sinisterly cute.

In all seriousness,  though he is becoming a handful,  I think,  I hope, we seem to be coping with the dos and donts and he is a pretty good kid...so far. But I can tell terrible twos will be a doozy...this guy knows how to milk it and his smirks tell me he will be a risk taker, or a rule breaker...sigh.

One thing is for sure, though I know when I need to put on my poker face, I totally don't mind giving in to the momma calls occasionally.  The way this guy is growing,  I am sure I will be longing to hear it. So I am not minding his suck-up tactics...I love my momma calls ;)

I should record it...ok I already have...a few times...hehehe.

xoxo
Caiden's momma

One Year Within a Blink of an Eye

I remember July 12, 2013 like it was yesterday...I had my precious monkey in the wee hours, after an 18 hour day at the hospital, in a heat wave,  during probably the busiest baby season BC Womens had seen. Now, one year has passed and Caiden just blew out candles on his first birthday cake at his first birthday party.  I honestly cannot believe how fast the year has gone by.

When you become a mom, there is much anticipation about each coming phase. A baby brings so many lessons and learnings each and every week it seems.  Your baby is growing daily, right before your eyes,  cm by cm, pound by pound.  You start living your life in milestones vs actual dates..."when was that dinner date?  oh right 3 months ago when Caiden started crawling."   There is so much happening, so much developing that no wonder time seems to fly by.

Kind of makes me sad as I wish I could slow it down, just a tad, though I love seeing my boy grow, I know I will be saying this same thing yearly. 

Caiden's birthday bash was a huge success.  We decided to do a summer park barbeque with all our family and friends, lots of food, games, water park, and of course cake!  Fittingly,  the theme was Curious George, oddly I seemed to have an affinity to monkeys from pregnancy to now with Caiden.  The theme worked well and everyone had a great time, including the birthday boy.  It was on the hottest day of the year, but of course we had tents and freezies galore. With the kids enjoying the water, pinata and sweets, the rest of us enjoyed taking snapshots in the curious george photo booth.

The best part was during the cake cutting, I was a little apprehensive that he would freak out. We had a mini cupcake smash photo session a few days earlier and he hated it! However, this happy guy realized everyone was singing to him, realized he was the centre of attention and started laughing and clapping himself!  Though, no, he didn't like eating or touching the cake. 

No surprise,  Caiden was spoiled rotten with more gifts, toys and clothes...he is one lucky guy. 

We wrapped up the day and felt a bit relieved.  The event was a lot of work and planning,  but not only did we get to see everyone participate and enjoy, but we really saw our baby acting like a big boy enjoying in his own way. Seeing him laugh and realizing we have made it through the year raising what seems to be a happy kid, for now, melted my heart.  

I wanted to remember him growing into this one year old boy so we had a poster/collage made. 

Sigh...one year already. 

Happy Birthday Caiden!

Some Stuff I Never Realized Until Now

Being a mother is amazing,  no question about that.  If you have been reading all along you already know just how much sheer joy it brings me. Yes, I know...my child has not yet reached the terrible twos.  So let me bask in how utterly awesome it is...giddily great.

Most of my already mommy friends painted a pretty picture of that for me. They look wonderful,  kids look great and they look like they get it all done.  But here I would like to tell you the things I didn't realize (not bad just different).  I know I may not be the only one that doesn't always have it all together. C'mon now.

Here we go:

I never realized that taking a quick shower with long hair was ever possible.  I may not always get a chance to fully rinse the shampoo out sometimes... never mind always conditioning (that's a luxury now).

I never realized the universal use of wet wipes.  I have been guilty of wiping up spills, my own face, and even feet with those bad boys.  Hey I buy in bulk...good thing.

I never realized that for a foodie like me, it is okay to eat your dinner cold.  After taking a few bites your kid needs something,  when they are settled sometimes you just can't be bothered to warm it up for fear of disturbing him...or you just are that hungry and you don't care at this moment.

I never realized that I would rock a ponytail as often as I do. No its not fashionable but it beats hair on the floor galore and prevents hair pulling.

I never realized how doing nothing is still something.  You never are doing nothing, but when someone asks what you did today, though you stayed home and reply "nothing" that's just simply understated. You are just a well oiled machine on auto-pilot. 

I never realized that I owned so many tights or yoga pants...because that has become the outfit of choice more often than not.

I never realized how annoyed you can get with your partner...for no reason other than you each contest to who is more tired.  Is it really a competition?  Yes, I like to point out I win this round daily...in my mind.

I never realized how much my son would look like his dad...no complaints but yeah he looks a lot like daddy.

I never realized how much I would need to sneak in and out of a room or whisper talk to hubby. We whisper a lot now...didn't know we knew how to.

I never realized how great wine would taste after abstaining for so long. On that note, I never realized you could forget how to even select or purchase wine at a liquor store...yes I was caught looking at a few bottles for quite some time.

Lastly,  I never realized just how much you wouldn't care about much of anything else. For a natural stress case, such as me,  that sounds impossible.  However, I have entered a phase of not caring to people please,  not caring to worry so much of things that you have  no control over; time is precious and your mat leave should be spent as happily as possible.  Which is why I ignored my agenda as much as possible and this is the most important realization I came to.

No point in getting bogged down with "to dos" daily when your one year goes by so fast.  I'm glad I enjoyed my Caiden baby time because, although people told me so...

...I just never realized how fast they grow and how fast time flies...wow. 

Top 10 Things About Being a Mommy

1.  Watching them sleep at night, so peaceful and angelic and cute...you forget all the tiredness of chasing them during the day

2.  Tiny arms and hands wrapping around you with full warmth...you forget they also know by now to pull hair

3.  Hearing a baby laugh is literally the most precious sound in the world

4.  You can bask in hearing how beautiful your baby is and you say to yourself "yup I made that"

5.  You get VIP seats to all the stages in their growing life...as you are their biggest fan. Then you don't hesitate to record and share with loved ones what's the newest accomplishment

6.  You have a legitimate reason to relive your childhood; watch sesame street, play with blocks, read Robert Munch, display stuffed animals

7.  It's cool to go to bed at 9

8.  Maternity leave (thank the lord we get a full year because you need it)

9.  You will never be bored...again

10.  No matter how tough it can be, how worried you get, how stressful a stage may be, or how tired you get...you feel absolute glee like never before. No other gig gives that satisfaction

....this is all of course before they start talking...