Energy Flowing

To me life is about energy, the flow of it, removing the negative, cultivating the positive, and keeping that flowing. It can be a challenge but the trick is to find those that contain positive energy, and making time to spend with them.

I wanted to remember this day as one massive surge of positive energy.

I woke up to my loving husband, who explained to me how I was crazy last night, not that I remember, but his sweetness made me want to just hug him and apologize. He then spent the morning making me laugh and gave me shopping mula just for me...positive energy times 2. My day continued with brunch with a friend and hubby, a walk at the farmers market, then a shopping trip with my mother in law. After a catnap, my brother came over to pick me up to hang out with him my mom and my grandmother. Last but not least I finished my day with a heart warming visit from my sister and my cousins, complete with cupcakes and them relishing in  excitement over peanut kicking. On top of that, through the whole day, I got messages or calls from other friends and family sending me love or just seeing how i'm feeling.

Yes, lots of love...the best type of energy.

As i'm getting ready for bed, I feel so fortunate, blessed and happy. I truly have a loving supporting network of people.  It is true that you will, at times in your life, have to learn what connections in your life foster the best energy for you, and rid yourself of situations creating anything but that. I feel content that my journey, thus far, has landed me in the circles of some amazing people. Just seeing and hearing from a few of those people today reminded me of how lucky I am, and how lucky our baby will be to be born into a network of love and good energy.

Peanut, you are going to be so loved...you don't even know.

Love you all...xoxo

Goodies!

I received this basket of pregnancy pampering goodies from my lovely cousins...hot chocolate, fuzzy blanket, nighty, pop chips, cocoa butter, hot water bottle and more. I used everything and then stored all my pregnancy books in the basket.
Thanks ladies! Xoxo

Glowing?

Hello again friends!

Well time seems to be flying by. I'm now 23 weeks, which means i'm almost done my second trimester...crazy I know.

Now i'm not sure exactly what the term "glowing" really means in pregnancy, but if it means happy and overall enjoying pregnancy, then i'm glowing.  I don't mean to say that there aren't some tough parts, because there are; shortness of breath, sometimes restless nights, occasional sciatica (holy ouch), mood swings (according to hubby, I'm sure he could start his own blog just on crazy stories about me). Despite that, however, I feel really excited and loving this growing experience, and luckily I truly do feel good most of the time. People were not joking when they said that this trimester would be good, so I tried to make the most of it, and got in spa days, and even went to an Alicia Keys concert. I'm also fortunate as I've been hearing positive things overall too. It makes me all warm and fuzzy when I hear people excited for us, but most of all when I feel my baby move!

That's right...peanut is a kickin'.

I felt what seemed like a pulsation last weekend, march 9th around 3am to be exact, and from then on have been getting that fluttery feeling I've heard about, along with actual kicks! Hubby's able to feel it also...coolest thing ever, hands down!

So I don't know if I'm "glowing" physically, that's opinion I suppose. But I sure feel like I am glowing emotionally, simply based on the way I feel connected to this developing and moving child of ours. Love this peanut.

I also know there are sleepless nights ahead, in a few short months, and some life changes so I guess I'm trying to enjoy everything about this journey.

3rd trimester...please be good.

Here we go...xoxo

Mind Blowing

I love roller coasters, ever since I was little…they're thrilling, scary and adventurous.  The dips make your stomach churn, the escalation builds suspense, and that moment cradling the top is reflection – reflection of what may occur next, because, well, it can be unpredictable. I think roller coasters and I have had an affinity, because it emulates life.  The good thing is, it’s a ride, and there is always an ending and a sense of walking away thinking “hmm, that was rough, but I know I could handle it”.

I think February was just that, one giant roller coaster…

To re-cap, in exact order: 

·         my brother got ill and ended up in a hospital for 2 weeks :(

·         then my mother in law got ill :(

·         then my brother came home :)

·         my baby brother graduated with his degree :)

·         I had my second ultrasound :)

·         my sister turned 30 :)

·         then my mother in law got really ill :(

·         one of my nephews turned 1 :)

·         my grandma had a mild stroke :(

·         I went to the doctor, heard baby’s heartbeat again as well as them kicking away :)    

Yes a tiring and long list, and I left out stuff like trying my first Romers burger, being there for some friends that went through a tough time, work stress, an amazing Valentine’s day from my hubby, and the buckets of rain we experienced this month (I am so over the rain by the way, seriously).  Nonetheless, I think it’s easy to see my point…life is full of ups and downs, some expected and some definitely not, just like a roller coaster.  We can’t control what will happen next, or how something will turn out, the only thing you can control is how you perceive the situation and what your attitude will be.  Oh yeah, and to hold on tight! 

Because I’m pregnant, my close friends and family were afraid of me getting stressed out because of my nature to take on “too much”.  Knowing all that was happening, I had numerous people checking on me to ensure I was getting enough rest or not stressing.  To be honest…I was expecting to crack, but I didn’t.  I took each thing as it came, good or bad, celebrated or planned, and somehow managed to still make myself a priority, and (a big and) keep my cool.  I know why…it’s because of peanut, obviously.  I know he/she is depending on me to be good to myself first and foremost, to accept what’s happening and be happy nonetheless. 

Here's why friends...

Have you ever experienced a meal that tastes so good, you can’t bear to chew because that intense flavor you want to last forever?  Or how about the first time you hear “I love you” from your true love, heightened emotions because you are so ecstatic from the thrill that this is what you have been waiting for?  Well seeing your baby on a screen moving, having limbs, a heartbeat and a brain is one million times more intense than that!!!  Truly mind blowing!!! Everything I do, everything I eat, and every emotion I choose affects this child right now. Things will not always be peachy keen, roses, lilies and butterflies, there are times of utter chaos, agony and fear.  There will always be downs, but the ups are so worth it!  Couple that with anticipation…anticipation that one day I’m going to get to hold and look at this baby, anticipation of what is to come next.  So life is just unpredictable, but you take the dips with the highs and be ok with not always knowing what’s to come.  Just like a roller coaster.

Pardon the gender friendly terms, but we ended up deciding to not find out.  Honestly, after seeing the baby on screen I just stopped caring about knowing anything more, and just taking everything as it comes.  So you will know when we do!

Stay tuned, talk to you very soon.

Maternity doesn't have to be boring...

 

I love adding a few accessories to make a simple outfit dazzle, these are some great finds at Forever 21, affordable and adds that extra mmpfh to make a cute/clean maternity look. 

  

Check out non-maternity stores for variety...you will be surprised.  From H&M, to TopShop, Old Navy and many more...explore.

 

I love the maxi look, cute but also chique, perfect for comfort and style.

 

Ideas for summer wear...



Growing

Whoa baby!

I'm now 17 weeks, doesn't sound like a lot in the grand scope...but sure does look like it. My belly is round, hips are big, and according to my mother, my cheeks are "chubby chubby ohhhh sooo cute."

I am really paying attention to taking care of peanut, eating well, yoga, but I have read that weight gain is varied for each woman...often depending on genetics. I'm Fijian Indian, genetics is not so kind in that department. If you don't know...now you know.

Having said all that, I'm actually enjoying this growth. I feel it's confirmation my peanut is growing, because I am. 

Maternity wear is a must now, though must still be cute...obviously. Just because I feel like a house doesn't mean I have to look like it....umm all the time. I have a tonne of new tops, some cute tunics. Something is missing though...oh yeah I have yet to get pants! So I have all these tops, that hubby and mom have got me, but no pants...awkward. I rock tights most of the time, but I'm feeling less tired and lazy these days, so my first time shopping myself for preggers gear is today. I'm excited!

I've been told the second trimester is the best, so I plan to take advantage. I'm also told that soon I will start feeling baby move. Hasn't happened yet, but apparently around this time it will be subtle, like butterflies. So I lay awake sometimes, super still, super quiet (I have no idea why in my mind that would make any difference, it doesn't). Nothing yet, but I will be sure to keep you posted.

Until next time friends!

Love peanut and peanut's house (I mean mom)

Showing

First off I feel the need to apologize (though not many know of this blog yet so I'm not sure who I'm apologizing to) for my lack of blogging recently. What I have learned is that the first trimester can make you extremely tired and well...lazy. Not that I'm complaining, it beats morning sickness. My peanut has been good to me...thank you baby.

Now to the good stuff...

Pregnancy is surreal. I find myself growing at lightning speed. So anyone who didn't know, could tell. I'm definitely modeling a fresh "baby bump", which I rock with pride. I can't feel peanut yet, but I tell myself he/she can feel me...so I rub the bump...and talk to it. This is what makes it surreal, right here: I see myself change, I can't feel anything, yet I'm so attached.

Hubby has transitioned to daddy mode. It's so endearing and funny at the same time. Because my bump is evident, if I cough, squirm, sneeze, move, he jumps up and says "whaaat, is baby ok?" 
Yes baby is fine, it's just me...I'm fine too, thanks love. This has its perks though, I forget what it's like to clean as hubby does it all. Hmmm the "P" card really does work.

So what have I been up to? In a nutshell: the holidays, prenatal yoga, work, new maternity clothes and sleeping. I'm listening to myself and the advice of my sisters and getting all the rest I need before peanut makes their debut and I forget that verb all together. So far so good.

First trimester is over.